At long last…

I am going to be a father! Megan is Preggers! Of course you don't just tell everyone as soon as you find out, so while we were keeping this secret for some time I was writing some thoughts down; and I thought you might enjoy them in their original diary-ish format. Here's a teaser. I haven't decided if I'll post the rest at once or in chunks…

March 31 A few days ago, we found out that Megan is pregnant! We've been trying for months now and to be honest, we were just starting to get discouraged. We even considered intentionally "blocking" for a month or two to avoid a Christmas baby. She was probably pregnant when we had those discussions. How's that for irony? It's funny how you feel when you find out. When we got married, people asked if we felt different. "Not really," we'd reply, "we're still the same people, living the same life. It's just a piece of paper." This time, it's not just a piece of paper, but it still feels kind of surreal. I think part of me is trying not to get my hopes too high, or set myself up for disappointment (miscarriage), which at this point is still a possibility, however remote. I'm actually so worried about this that whenever we're apart (like when I'm at work) and my phone rings, my heart races a little bit. And if I see that it's Megan calling? Can you say miniature panic attack? But so far, we've been lucky and haven't had any negative signs or symptoms. The hardest part so far has been keeping the secret. This isn't news we plan on spreading via the phone or — obviously, the blog — so right now we're in the process of organizing times to get together with the people we want to tell in person. Mom thinks she's really busy with school work? Trust me Mom, you really want us to come down to celebrate our birthdays this weekend. Most of all, we're just happy. We've got our first doctor appointment booked, and it's all downhill from here. Here we go!